i hope everything will be ok on my end soon. if future me sees this, pls stay strong

I was an Animation student and with that degree back in 2019-2021 it was like 50% Animating and 50% coding. I've always wanted to code ever since due to my love of gaming and I've dreamed of making my own one day —but javascript made me want to rip my eyeballs out and pull strands of my hair every single time and with that I've realized that It's never going to happen and so I pursued a different career path but still on the line of art.

I'm proud to say I've started coding again...from the very start.

Sure concepts and shit was familiar but I've not coded ever since I graduated that in high school, the academic art scenery had burnt me out so much in the creative field (and going through insane amount of dubious self reflection) that now that I'm about to be entering my 4th year (i hope) I've taken some time off to detox from the academic and social stress, and I'm really happy that I've started to study/practice coding C#. I could go so far as to say the future looks bright, I understand why passion is needed for some things now and spite isn't an optimal main source of it.

I'm planning to release two or three kinds of games, one of them is both mobile and on the pc. the others are just purely on PC but I'm really excited! I've gotten the art thing down, only thing left is coding ;DD In the meantime, have a WIP Sprite from one of the characters in my magnum opus! (Oh yeah the games aren't the final final ones yet, but yk what this is the drive ig)

UPDATE!

I crashed out but everything is fine, as far as creative/passionate projects could go, I am now drafting (well or rather;) making each and every one's sprites, heres the first 4 beloveds

I really hope this goes well ;A;!!!!!!

ok

ive been stringing this on for too long, i am going to start,,,honestly i should just stop talking about ita nd just do it, HERES TO FUTURE FAILED PROJECTS!!!! TO LESSONS TO BE LEARNED! TO BREAKDOWNS! TO MORE BRAINROTS! AND TO MORE PROGRESSION!

FCK IT!! IM DUMPING PERFECTIONISM TO THE GROUND

I think it's lowkey time for me to do that shit, ive been planning since 13yrs old or sumn. I should've done this waaaaaayyyy sooner back then, but oh well. Might post it on newgrounds for a trial and error thing before going on to itch.io. I'm planning on using every bit of my knowledge for the past few years for this shiet, heck i might even touch roblox goddamn studio for it. Gamemaker, RPG Maker, renpy, webcomics, animatics, etc

funfact i remember buying gamemaker studio for 500php before when undertale was new and i searched what toby fox's engine was and it was gamemaker studio, got busy with school and when i tried to go back and learn during the pandemic found out steam yeeted it, or idk what happened but it's free now I guess ;-; !

i want to do a project before i graduate my Fine Arts degree

I'm just dumping these bands/artists/songs I was recommended to or found so I won't forget it!

Sigur Ros

Bon Iver

Iron and Wine

Barcelona's album - Absolutes

Gregory Alan Isakov

The Trees and The Wild

Josh Fudge - Fun Times

The 28th - Alunig

Jirapah

Oh Wonder

Vira Talisa

AG Ulpindo

bed chamber

Kinoko Teikoku

Indigo la End

Giver Costibolo

Lescop

Bleached

Any Name's Okay

FEVER 333

Fujifabric

belfa

Cody Lee

im not sure if this is allowed here but I'll go crazy on it because I'm more comfortable in Newgrounds than in twitter, instagram and anything else. and this'll just be my note dumping regarding the oc's or the world building i am to drop. if any instances that people in the future can see this well, hi says the author from 11/7/2020

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It's illegal for one to make their own planet, Jask had failed over and over because of it and in order to maintain it, it has to be in a manual way of doing so to *not* get caught.

honestly thats it and this being my OC i started from scratch again. But yeah just dumping these here because i suck at keeping notes and my irl notes are just as unorganized as encoding them

but in terms of worldbuilding for " Alternealm " (atleast thats what its first called), it's illegal for a mortal to do it, especially with Jask being a rebellious one in defying "god" or breaking the rules hence trying to maintain the universe/planets manually and at the time of the capture, it was impossible for him to keep it up hence the falling out.

yuuup,,,,

thats all

dont mind this, its a dump.

I've been here for 4 years and I still haven't done shit. Hopefully gettin productive naw.